the story continues . .
Tuesday, June 28, 2016
Nenver thought I will ever return back to here, especially when it contains all the memories from my teenage years. All the good, the bad, and the past that are all gone.
Maybe not all, but most definitely.
Interesting how social platforms also evovled through the years, from Blogspot to Wordpress (never had one though) to Tumblr and to Dayre. Not for better or for worse, but just because it is a fast-paced world where old things get replaced by the new.
Though of course somethings might always stay, like Google and Facebook.
So it's the third week of my employment life, and I am still adapting? Not really like the feeling of being lost and being so reliant on other - I really do want to work independently and be conpetent in my work. And of course, the careles mistakes I have been making is bothering me, even if I am not being scolded for them.
And of course full time employment is so different than short-term conmitments, becuase for the latter you know that eventually you will leave this place - the colleagues you meet, the mistakes you make, and the routine that might have grown to be farmilar. I guess that's why I am never too keen to make friends in the workplace, because I never intended to stay close in contact after leaving the company.
And of course. there is also the real summer/december break to look foward to after each semester and each job.
But this of course has changed, with a permanent contract, I might just stay with the company forever?
Not that it is really a bad thing, for this means better employee benefits and job securit (right?). But it is hard not to admit that little sense of suffocation that I am feeling, that I might be doing this forever. Not just the job itself, but rather being employed in the workforce until retirement age (which might have increased to 75 years old when its my turn).
Ok, it's still too early to be pessimistic. I am loving the job environment so far, very friendl colleagues, very nice bosses. And also the dedication each of them have to their job which I admire and look up to. Maybe because I am in HR, but really we do care about the staffs in the company and not just profit k. My colleague J is probably the most dedicated and thoughtful person I have ever encountered in my career journey, besides KM.
I will survive in this, maybe not excel but definitely up to expectation?